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Animus
By Jules
Chapter 2
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** The next day **
Cordelia went right back to the way things used to be. She?d make the coffee, then start typing invoices . . .
or at least she tried to do all of that.
Wesley walked in to find Cordelia struggling to pour a cup of coffee with her one good arm. Her hair was
down, and the shirt she had on obviously was Angel?s. On top of that, she was wearing a pair of jeans.
Wesley had always doubted whether she?d even owned a pair.
He quickly went to her aid, ?Can I help you with that?? he asked reaching for the coffeepot.
?NO!? Cordelia exclaimed, pulling the coffeepot away from his hand, ?I want to do it myself.? She pouted.
Wesley pulled away his hands, and held them up in surrender.
She tried to do it three more time, just sloshing coffee on the floor, then gave up.
Silently Wesley took it from her, and poured her a cup of coffee. Not saying a single word, just handing her
the mug, then pouring himself some. He added some sugar to his, and two scoops to Cordelia?s, plus a
splash of cream then stirred.
Cordelia murmured a thank you, then went to her desk and laid her head on her good arm. If there was one
thing in the world Cordelia hated, it was not being able to take care of herself. Of course she never minded
when guys took care of her, when she wanted them too, but the fact that she couldn?t do things made her
cross. She hated feeling weak, like she needed someone.
Angel had watched this from the stairs. He understood Cordelia hated feeling helpless and unable to take
care of herself. Her pride was the only thing she?d been left with once everything had been taken away.
She did everything in her power to make sure no one knew she was poor. In LA, she had told Angel she
was doing great, when actually she was living in a roach infested apartment, and had to take food home
from parties so as not to starve to death. He admired her pride, but knew that someday, it might cause
some major problems.
** One month later **
Cordelia?s bruises had disappeared, her shoulder healing, but the scars left on her spirit were deep, and
not even close to being healed. And the repercussions of the disastrous relation ship hadn?t even all
revealed themselves yet.
It had been decided (mostly by Angel, though Cordelia hadn?t put up much of a fight) that Cordelia would
live with Angel. They (meaning Cordelia this time) would live in the penthouse of the hotel. And once
Cordelia had finished, you wouldn?t have even recognized it if you?d seen it before.
Cordelia had kept her mind busy by working night and day, actually scrubbing the floors, walls, and kitchen,
and then she got to the part she liked, decorating. She?d taken over the money Angel had in the
basement, and she?d gone wild. It was a mixture of her tastes and Angel?s. All the furniture, drapes, and
two king size beds were black, but the lamps, pillows, picture frames, rugs, clocks, and two over stuffed
chairs were leopard print.
Angel had no say what so ever, but it was dark enough to suit his tastes.
The money that was left, Cordelia handed most of it over to David Nabbit, and instructed him to do anything
that would make the sum bigger.
Cordelia also planned on making most of the rest of the hotel, into a hotel again. Though she didn?t let
Angel in on the plans. Instead she just took over the floor underneath the penthouse, knocked down a lot of
walls, and created a real office for Angel Investigations, as well as a first aid center, fully stocked, and a
training center, thanks to more of David?s more then willing help.
Angel let her, knowing that it was her way of not having to deal with the pain, but when she started to forgo
sleep, to work instead, Angel put his foot down.
Cordelia hadn?t told Angel about the nightmares, which were the root of her constant day and night work
schedule. At night, that?s when his face haunted her dreams. Memories of his beating would pulse though
her mind ending with her waking up in a cold sweat, terrified of returning to sleep. It had got to the point
where she was afraid to close her eyes period.
Finally, Angel forced her to go to bed. Instead of going to bed himself, he sat in a chair in the hallway,
reading a book, to make sure she didn?t get back up.
He?d only just started to read his text when she started tossing.
Angel kept reading.
Then she started to moan every now and then.
Angel went into the room, and found her struggling in bed, asleep, against something in her dream, when
she started to cry out and beg at the person in her dream, ?No! Please, don?t hurt me. I?m sorry!?
Angel freaked; he ran over and tried to wake her up. At first, she didn?t awaken to his calls, then finally, her
eyes opened, breathing heavily, sobs working their way out of her chest. She grabbed onto Angel, hugging
him tight, desperate for his protective embrace.
It took 20 minutes of petting, soothing murmurs, and his stroking of her long her, and finally she calmed
down. Very guiltily, Angel realized he was a little glad that it had taken to so long to calm her. Having her in
his arms just felt so right.
Cordelia secretly was feeling the same way; being in Angel?s arms just felt so perfect, so natural. She
never safer, then when Angel had his strong-arms around her. She also realized how lucky she was that
her heart was already beating fast, otherwise her feelings for Angel would be revealed, though in truth,
she?d just discovered them herself.
** One week later **
Angel had done some research, and gone shopping. He came back and found Cordelia in the construction
of the office, as usual. Cordelia was surprised to see him there. He typically stayed away from it. But she
soon learned he had a purpose in mind.
Angel forced Cordelia to leave, telling her the crew could work without her. Cordelia was confused, but went
with him. Finally, they were in the penthouse. Angel paced for a few moments.
Cordelia got tired of it, ?Angel, what is going on? You?re acting really strange . . .?
?I?m in love with you.?
Cordelia looked at him, mouth wide open, ?What did you say??
?I?m in love with you. When you were gone, I was so lonely. I missed you so much, those few moments
when we talked on the phone were never enough, and then when I found you in the apartment . . . . It was
as if my heart had been ripped out of my chest. I?ve fallen for you hard. I want to protect you for the rest of
my life. So there?s only one solution, that would make me happy.? Angel got down on one knee in front of
the goddess before him, ?Cordelia Chase, will you do me the honor of pledging yourself to me in a ritual
tonight, that would bind us forever??
He pulls out a beautiful platinum ring, there was a two-caret diamond, on both sides were tiny diamonds and
peridots.
?Oh my . . . Angel, yes!? Cordelia gasped, allowing him to put it on her finger, then he stood up and
hugged her.
** Two hours later **
Angel gave Cordelia a garment bag, ?I was walking by this one boutique while I was getting components for
the ritual, and I saw this dress . . . it was like I was meant to find it for you, for tonight.?
Cordelia took the bag, ?I?ll go try it on while you set things up.? She was turning around then stopped, ?I
almost forgot.? She pulls out an old, platinum ring (obviously meant for a man) out of her pocket, ?This was
my grandfather?s wedding ring. My grandmother gave it to him on the day they married over 80 years ago.
He gave it to me after Grandmother died, telling me to give it to the man I loved with all my heart and soul
the day I married.?
Angel cautiously took it from her, as if afraid it would disappear, along with her, ?You have no idea how
much it means to me that you are giving this to me . . .?
?Yes I do . . . probably the same as how much it means to me that you love me enough to pledge yourself
to me, I had thought that you would never feel the same way about me, and it was a total shock. I know my
grandfather would be proud of my choice too.? Then Cordelia walked into the bathroom.
Angel set up Mari-Mari candles all around the bedroom, and lit them, except for one tall one, which he
placed on the floor at the end of the bed, with the engraved ritual bowel filled with all the ingredients
needed for the ceremony.
He changed into black button-down shirt, which he left un-tucked and unbuttoned. He had just finished
when the bathroom door opened, the dressed looked like it was made for her. She looked so perfect, like
his angel, his Goddess. The gauzy white dress contrasted her tan skin and long loose dark ringlets
perfectly. It had tiny straps, and practically see-through. The fluid skirt ended just before her knees. The
dress had a v-neck and a ribbed that tied, holding it on, beneath her amble soft breast. Angel?s heart was
in his throat, he could feel the borrow blood rushing his body.
Cordelia stood self-consciously in the bathroom doorway, starring at the muscular physic across the room,
the man who held her heart. His shirt was unbuttoned and was barefoot too. She bit her lip nervously as his
eyes swept over her body, studying her. He held out his hand in invitation to her. Cordelia slowly walked
over to him, swinging her hips.
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Angel could see the longing and devotion in Cordelia?s eyes as she provocatively came to him. She was a
Goddess, and he couldn?t believe she wanted him, or that he?d been so blind before now.
Cordelia too was in shock, the brooding souled-vamp actually wanted her, her Cordelia, not Buffy, and the
ritual they were about to perform would join them, their hearts, and spirits forever. And if somehow he ever
lots his soul again, even though they wasn?t any clauses this time around, Angelus wouldn?t kill her either,
because the joining made them one spirit, killing her, would feel like he killed part of himself. She watched
him, the looks in his eyes were ones of untold love and desire.
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Cordelia placed her hand into his outstretched, then together they kneeled near the bowl where they put
their most precious possessions in, both put in the rings they had given each other that very day.
The first thing they had to do, was speak from their hearts. They joined hands, and starred into each
other?s eyes.
Angel went first, ?I fell in love with you Lia, I couldn?t help myself, you?re just so beautiful and alive. Always
saying what you think, it?s tactless, but cute. I don?t know why I was so dense for so long, but I know that
you were created for me, and I was created to love you.?
Cordelia sniffed, ?Oh Angel, I wanted you from the first moment I saw you, those years ago. It was another
lifetime, and it took a lot too finally get where we are today . . . but for you it was worth it. You are the most
wonderful, caring, protective, devoted person I?ve ever met. When you asked me to do this, I was so
surprised, and happy. I don?t think I?ll ever be happier, then when I?m with you.?
They chanted as one, ?To each other, we bind ourselves together.?
The candles in the room start to burn brighter, and the flower petals and herbs start swirling around and
floating up in a spiral from the bowl between their joined hands.
?That on our immortal lives, the love we share transcends time.
To each other we vow to protect and cherish.?
The candle between them starts to smoke, and the rose and orchid petal?s swirl encircling their bodies
while wind whips around them as well, but does not disturb the flames. Angel and Cordelia take the rings
from the bowl and place them on each other?s fingers as they continue the chant.
?I promise you as you promise me
That we will be linked throughout eternity.
Forever she shall be joined as one
You are part of me just as I am part of you
In our hearts, forever young.?
A bright light flashed between their hands, and both felt a surge of energy with in them. Cordelia stared into
Angel?s eyes, Angel stared right back, his eyes dark with desire.
?Wait here.? He ordered in a husky voice.
Quickly he grabbed a remote from the dresser and turned on the CD player. Cordelia?s heart leapt as the
song from her favorite movie began to play.
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When it?s love you give (I?ll be a man of good faith)
Then in love you live (I?ll make a stand, I won?t break)
I?ll be the rock you can build on
Be there when you?re old
To have and to hold
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The ceremony was said to magnify passion and desire, and the final part was secret. If it worked, you?d
know.
Angel put the remote down and went back to his love. He pulled her to him, plundering his hot mouth with
his cold tongue. Cordelia eagerly responded. His hands traveled to the bow on Cordelia?s dress and untied
it, it slipped to the ground. Cordelia eagerly pushed off Angel?s shirt. Her hands rushed to unbutton his
pants, and they were soon heaped on the floor next his shirt and her dress.
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When there?s love inside (I swear I?ll always be strong)
Then there?s a reason why (I?ll prove to you we belong)
I?ll be the wall that protects you
From the wind and the rain
From the hurt and the pain
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Angel lifted her up, Cordelia wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist.
Neither noticed the tall candle burst aflame, as a result of their obvious passage.
They fell on to the feathery mattress of the bed, Cordelia sinking into it, loving the feeling of Angel?s weight
on top of her. Their pelvis?s rubbed together through the thin fabric of what little was left. Cordelia felt
Angel?s growing appendage on her leg and was in more of a hurry finish getting their clothes off.
Angel kisses down Cordelia?s neck, she moans when he reaches a magic spot.
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Let?s make it all for one and all for love
Let the one you hold be the one you want
The one you need
?Cause when it?s all for one it?s one for all
When there?s someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love
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Cordelia bit her lip, ?Oh my god, I can?t believe this is happening, he loves me! ME! He had his soul
forever, and he wants to be with me, he committed the rest of his eternity to me. I love him so much . . .?
Cordelia flipped Angel and straddled him, ?You have no idea how long I?ve wanted this.?
Then she started kissed a path down his chest slowly.
Angel watched her in awe, ?It?s happening, it?s finally happening. She?s a Goddess, and she?s mine, all
mine, forever. It never felt like this with Buffy, Buffy was forbidden fruit, Delia, she?s my mate, my intended .
. . I love her with all my heart. Cordelia Chase is the reason I was put on this earth.?
Angel growled, ?Cordelia . . .? when she started paying a lot of attention to his stomach.
She grinned at him, then returned to his lips.
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When it?s love you make (I?ll be the fire in your night)
Then it?s love you take (I will defend, I will fight)
I?ll be there when you need me
When honors at stake
This vow I will make:
That it?s all for one and all for love
Let the one be you want
The one you need
?Cause when it?s all for one it?s one for all
When there?s someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love
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Angel flipped her over, pinning her underneath him, her arms above her head with one hand, ?I love you
Delia.?
Then he claimed her lips once more. His other hand traveled down her body and disposed of her panties.
He looks deep into her eyes, ?Are you ready??
She nods her head, ?Make love to me Angel.?
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Don?t lay our love to rest
?Cause we could stand up to your test
We got everything and more than we had planned
More than the rivers that run the land
We?ve got it all in our hands
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Angel gently slipped into the hot, velvety depths of the woman he loved more than anything in the world.
Cordelia?s heart was soaring, her body experiencing more pleasure than she?d ever thought possible.
Angel?s nipped at the area around her neck, and kissed her all over. Cordelia?s hands ran all over his
body, her mind was quickly becoming lost as the waves went all the way to her head. She just started
gasping and calling out, ?Angel, oh my . . . ANGEL!?
Cordelia pulled Angel to her neck and he bit in, tasting her coppery blood for the first time. It was the
sweetest thing he?d ever tasted. Both came at once, then finally collapsed in a sweaty exhausted mess,
neither wanting to part, legs intertwined.
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Now it?s all for one and all for long
(It?s all for love)
Let the one you hold be the one you want
The one you need
?Cause when it?s all for one it?s one for all (It?s one for all)
When there?s someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
When there?s someone that you want
When there?s someone that you need
Let?s make it all for one and all for love
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The ability to think finally returned to Cordelia and she gasped, ?Oh my God, Angel! You?re soul!?
She was about to get up and run, but Angel quickly soothed her fears, ?Shhhh, don?t worry. The oracle?s
anchored my soul. I?ll never turn into Angelus again. And that last moment there was plenty to do it.
Actually, if that clause was still in place I would have lost it the moment you agreed to marry me.?
?Oh Angel!? Cordelia kissed him, and snuggled closer to him, ?I love you so much.?
?I love you too Delia, forever.?
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